How can anyone be expected to be passive and submissive and follow what is required of them when their very own nature defies it? I did that for a long time, you know. I did that for at least 10 years. It wasn't easy, but from the beginning I was only a child and I wanted to please everyone, I wanted to make everyone happy with me, and I thought that if I could only try, I would somehow gradually become who they wanted me to be. It was the only thing I ever knew, apart from who my parents were.